MINDYLOU79

Well I started Buddyslim a year ago and I am 12 pounds heavier now than I was then. Suprisingly enough I don’t feel bad about it though. I had a very rough year last year. I was going through a very very rough divorce, and my Grandfather died in June. My divorce was final on December 8, 09 and I have started dealing with my Grandfather’s death rather than avoiding it. As for exercising goes, I have been doing water aerobics at the Y and I am proud to say that I have made it everyday this week even when I didn’t want to get up I did and I went to the class. Today I started doing a little more and I did 3 miles on the bike plus the water aerobics class. Starting tomorrow, I will start going to the Y an hour b4class and work out. I talked to an instructor and I have a routine planned out in my mind and I plan on sticking to it.  As for my diet, I have been trying to not eat as much but I have been having a hard time with eating healthy. The hard part for me is that the food I can afford is not the best food for me. Bread & pasta go a long way but it is not good for a person tryin to lose weight. If anyone has any ideas as to what what is cheap but is good for me please help!! Thanx to all of you for your support!

I STARTED WALKING ALMOST DAILY A FEW WEEKS AGO AND I HAVE BEEN FEELING MORE ENERGETIC. I GOT MY YMCA MEMBERSHIP AND NEVER USED IT TILL TODAY. I WENT 2 DAYS AGO AND LEARNED HOW TO USE THE MACHINES BUT HAD AN EXCUSE THE LAST 2 DAYS NOT TO ACTUALLY EXERCISE. SO TODAY I FORCED MYSELF TO GET OUT OF BED (WHICH IS THE HARDEST PART) AND I WENT TO A 830AM WATER AREOBICS CLASS. THAT WAS AN HOUR LONG AND IT WAS AWESOME. I THEN DID 5 MIN ON A STATIONARY BIKE, WHICH WAS ALOT HARDER THAN I THOUGHT IT WOULD BE. I CAME HOME ATE, PLAYED ON THE COMPUTER, TOOK A NAP AND THEN GOT UP AND WENT FOR A 2 1/2 MILE WALK. I FEEL GREAT. I FIND IT STRANGE HOW EXERCISE ACTUALLY GIVES ME MORE ENERGY CAUSE I ONLY SLEPT 2 1/2 HOURS PRIOR TO GOING TO THE Y AND 3 AFTER. I AM USUALLY A 10 HOUR SLEEPER OR LONGER. I LUV HOW I’M FEELING. I AM GOING TO THE WATER AREOBICS CLASS AGAIN IN THE MORNING AND I AM ACTUALLY LOOKING FORWARD TO IT. I DONT THINK I HAVE EVER LOOKED FORWARD TO EXERCISING IN MY ENTIRE LIFE. I’M LOVING IT. OH AND I FILED FOR DIVORCE LAST WEEK AND MY HUSBAND WAS SERVED WITH HIS PAPERS TODAY. I FEEL GREAT ABOUT THAT TOO.

I HAVE BEEN SLOWLY GETTING BACK ON TRACK. I HAVE ACTUALLY FOUND MYSELF GETTING EXCITED ABOUT EXERCISING. I HAVEN’T SEEN ANY RESULTS YET BUT I FEEL THE DIFFERENCE WITHIN MYSELF. I SPENT LAST WEEKEND AT MY MOM’S DOING YARD WORK AND LANDSCAPING AND WHEN IT WAS ALL SAID AND DONE, I COULD FEEL IT IN MY BODY AND IT FELT GREAT. I HAVE ALSO PROMISED MY GRANDMA TO HELP HER WITH HER YARD WORK AND WITH HER HUGE YARD I SHOULD BE DROPPING THE POUNDS. MY HOPE IS THAT ONCE I START SEEING THE RESULTS, THEN I WILL CONTINUE WITH “NORMAL” EXERCISE BECAUSE ONE DAY I KNOW THE YARD WORK WILL HALT DUE TO EITHER TOO MUCH RAIN OR SNOW WHEN WINTER ROLLS AROUND AGAIN. SO I’M GONNA KEEP MY HEAD HIGH AND KEEP MOVING FORWARD.

I haven’t lost and kept off any weight, Actually I have gained weight and keep it on. I hate it. I feel like such a loser and as I sit here writing this blog, I am watching The Biggest Loser on T.V. and eating my 3rd bowl of icecream today. What is wrong with me? I can’t seem to get motivated and get on track. I am so severly depressed and I think that has a lot to do with how I react to my diet….or lack of a diet. I want to get this weight off. I am tired od my pants digging into my waist and I a tired of my shirts being skin tight. I hate using the bathroom at work because it has a HUGE mirror and I don’t wanna face myself. I hate who I see. I only look in the mirror at home when I need to do my hair in the morning b4 work. I own 5 pieces of exercise equipment but I don’t use any of it. Well actually I use it to air dry my pants now because if I dry them in the dryer, they don’t fit. I am such a loser….and not in a good way. I hate my life right now. I hate that I’ve allowed myself to become this big, huge person that don’t fit most of her clothes and eats to bury stress. I need to get it together. I have failed my 1st goal of losing enough weight to fit into the ride seats at six flags this year. That really sucks.

O.K. So here goes….I am tired of my bras. I wear a 44DD and I can only find one type of bra that works. It is the Playtex Original Comfort Strap and they are beginning to get on my nerves too. My breasts always pops out on one side or the other or the top and they always seem to hike up in the back. I am sick and tired of adjusting myself. The price has also went up from $18 to $25 and that is a little much for something I’m not satisified with anyway. So any suggestions I will take even from men…I don’t care just help me please!!!

OFF THE DEEP END……THATS WHERE I FELL……RIGHT OFF THE DEEP END. I HAVE HAD A REALLY ROUGH WEEK AND MY COMPUTER WAS INFESTED SO I COULDN’T USE IT. SO NOW IT IS FIXED AND I CAN GET SOME ENCOURAGEMENT FROM OTHERS GOING THROUGH THE SAME THING. I HAVE GAINED BACK ALL THE WEIGHT I LOST BUT 1 POUND. I HAVE BEEN EATING WAY TO MUCH FAST FOOD AND JUNK AND NOT ENOUGH WATER. I HAVENT EXERCISED AT ALL AND I MISSED A WEEK OF SCHOOL. I HAVE BEEN SEVERLY DEPRESSED AND I NEED TO SNAP OUT OF IT. I HAVE BEEN GOING TO CHURCH MORE AND I WILL KEEP DOING SO CAUSE I KNOW THAT I WILL ALWAYS FIND HOPE IN JESUS. I WILL BE TAKING A LONG NEEDED VACATION NEXT WEEK AND I WILL GET BACK ON TRACK.

I have been dealing with a lot of stress and I went to my college counselor today and talked to her and got some classes changed. I believe this will help me a lot with the stress of school. I have been exercising more and I have become more aware of what I’m eating. I am feeling increasingly  better about my outlook.

I have not been doing too good this 1st week with the exercise but I have been doing a lot better with not eating fast food. I used to eat fast food 2 or more times a day and I have only eaten fast food 2x this entire week. I have been batteling a lot of emotional issues centered around my failing marriage. I started college this week and I am scared out of my mind that I won’t be smart enough to pass some of my classes. One class is going to be especially trying cause it consists of watching a movie every week that is often time very graphic and all too familiar to me and my life. I am fighting a severe chest cold and puffing my inhaler for the 1st time in 3 years but I suppose that is normal since it’s like 25 below zero with the wind chill. So I am looking forward to warmer weather and my lungs to feel better so I can exercise without coughing so much I throw up. Wish me luck and I will be praying for all of you to have the strength to get where you want to be in life.